Summer
September 26, 2005
Photo Meme: Beautiful (Thursday Challenge)
Summer seems like a blur to me. A somewhat colorful blur, but a blur nonetheless. I fear that I am quite exhausted by the whole ordeal. When I attempt to wrap words around the past summer, I end up speaking in terms of events, destinations, hours on the road, loads of laundry, accommodations, flight plans, gas prices and junk food consumed.
When I was a child, summer lasted forever. Long afternoons were spent reading books out of doors with my faithful dog nearby. Days were strung together in a warm haze playing with my sister and brothers in the woods and fields surrounding our home. A week or two was spent having tea and scones with my grandmother. I felt a peaceful security while camping in the cool, New England woods in a large tent with my parents and siblings so close and the soft pine scented breezes blowing through the canvas. Every summer, we drove to visit my (great) Auntie Geri and Uncle Leon and their friends Pops and Grace at their cottages at Hampton Beach. When we wanted to go swimming we found ourselves at Sandy Pond or Forest Lake. These things filled my summer with riches I find myself inadequate to describe.
I don't remember worrying about what I was going to wear, where I was going to sleep, or what I was going to eat, although, I will confess to wanting to know how much longer it would take before we were "there yet". It wasn't until I was an adult that I realized that I never even bathed the entire week we were camping. I just took a swim every afternoon in the cool, sparkling water of the lake.
What is the difference between then and now? I know that most of us believe the difference lies in the fact that we are adults now. We have to keep the laundry going, make sure we have reservations, feed our families while traveling. And, yes, we have to know how long it will take to get where we're going, if for no other reason than to report back our ETA to the children every few miles. I have thought about all of this and something has become clear to me.
When I was a child, it wasn't about where we were going or what we were doing. It was about who we were doing it with. It was all about knowing that my grandmother would play game after game of Yahtzee with me every afternoon I was with her. I couldn't wait to go to her house and spend time with her. I always slept on a cot near her bed and woke to her musical alarm clock. "Oh! What a beautiful morning..."
I couldn't wait to meet Pops at the Hampton Beach playground where he would let me come in and play even when I grew too tall to "officially" be allowed in. Oftentimes, I would spend the time with him talking about things I sadly have forgotten and watching the thick, sweet smoke curling away from his cigar. My Auntie Geri would take long, early morning walks on the beach with me filling my tin pail with all manner of precious seashells. My memories of the beach are mixed with the smell of fresh paint from the summer my Uncle Leon painted the cottages.
I remember sitting around the campfire in the dark of night roasting marshmallows with my parents and siblings. Later I would listen to the night noises outside our tent and the snores of my father a few feet away from my cozy sleeping bag. I would wake to find my father cooking scrambled eggs and homefries over the fire.
My sister and brothers and I would spend rainy summer days playing in the enormous attic of our old, Victorian home scaring one another, getting reacquainted after months spent in classrooms separated from each other. In good weather, we would tramp through fields of grass taller than we were playing hide and seek. Occasionally, we would find a bobolink's nest in the deep grass.
When I was a child, it was about the people and relationships I had with them. I know that I can't become a child once again, but I think that, if I blink a few times and clear my eyes, I can see the people and not just the sandy suitcases and the prices at the pump.
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Comments:
I think you're right, and it reminds me of the struggle I fight with myself every day. As a dad, I often find myself constantly watching the clock; I rush Laura through her bedtime routine, telling her that she only has eleven more minutes until bedtime or whatever. I'm always thinking about what I'm going to do next and how little time that leaves me for what I'm doing now.
Laura, meanwhile, demonstrates continually that she has absolutely no understanding of the passage of time. She doesn't care about how many other things I might want to do after she gets in bed; she just wants to prolong whatever it is we're doing.
When she's an adult, I don't want her to remember me as a dad who never seemed to have quite enough time for her. I like to think my priorities are in order, but it's easy to forget that on a small scale. She's still living in that world where the summer lasts forever, but I'm worrying about how I spend each minute.
Posted by: Bob at September 27, 2005 2:54 PM
I'm so glad your back! Enjoyed this post!
Posted by: Heather at September 28, 2005 5:46 PM
Firefly, a very goodmorning to you! :)
Posted by: Bananas! at October 1, 2005 9:54 AM
Thank you for your kind comment on my blog! Celine is not my daughter, but indeed; She's a pretty young lady! :)
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